The end of 2022.
How was my journey form January to Now (End of November)?
It started off with slow progression in the love life department. Picked up with excitement, rush and utterly disappointment.
Career wise. It picked up with profit but slowly died down as things at home became heavier and the weight of responsibility could more to bear as time went on.
This year feels exactly like 2020 but a few interesting twist and turns.
ABSOLUTE RESULTS- MOVE THE HELL AWAY FROM THE HOME.
Different Things OR Different Views
These days, my views have been different. Not in a complicated, stressed, looking over my shoulders kind of way, but In a calm admiration for the things around me. The sky looks prettier, the winds are chilly with a hint of calm blessings. The evenings and night brings solitude but not loneliness. It rings in the peace of day that I have not been able to realize in awhile.
Question: Is it things around me have changed or did I change in how I view those things?
I would be the first to admit that I was going along with the hustle and bustle of life. I didn't truly grasp the essence of the little things. I calmed my soul and the unexpected made me smile. The change in color of the sky, the rare moment when the moon shadowed the sky during the morning and early morning peace before the beginning of the day.
I changed my mindset I guess. I went against the regular routine, my changed perceive made my soul feel good.
Life comes in many different forms to each persons. Two years, I loved the hustle and bustle of it. Not having a moment to slow down, just go go go. One year ago, I missed and craved the busy-ness of it. Now Honestly I still miss it but I have found the balance of busy and slow. Seeing with fast pace to seeing with slow strides.
HJ.
I started my 'NEW YEAR' on my Birthday 😳
My 25 years consisted of my tears and loses for the year 2021. I remembered being so filled with excitement and hope when 2020 hit on New Years, only to end up feeling unsure, uncertain and estrange from things like they were something I couldn't recognized. The feeling left me scared, worried and anxiety filled .( Just like my UWI days😖😖.) From Sou- Sou to Bad investments to goals not being accomplished, 2020 was an unfilled year for me.
The OLD YEARS INTO NEW YEARS for 2021, I cried on the furniture set at my cousin's place. All my emotions of 2020 hit harder than I had expected it too. However, right there I knew I was go home ,be a big girl and get shit done. I had to get back on track even if 2020 pushed me 2 years behind.
It was right there I decided that why I am not waiting on a "NEW" year to get certain things and goals done. Why wasn't I seize the moments given to me?
We put some much emphasis on a New Year that we don't get all the joy out of the days ahead of us. It is - For the New Year, I will START this class or START this new workout or START this business venture..
With my change my mindset, I became an entrepreneur. My own boss.
- Each new year of My Birth, should be filled with great things. Not New Year of the Decade.
HOW IS YOUR YEAR GOING TO BE FILLED?
HAPPINESS, LOVE AND BLESSINGS 💓
People around you tells you to lose weight or put on weight. Even when you think you look great or feel your best, we still take their opinion into consideration and sometimes forget about our own opinions and views.
Honestly, I feel better, happier and more confident at 115 lb. Maybe need to tone a bit but I am comfortable and accept my body for what it is. Others may think that's too little lb or judge for not looking a certain way. However, I don't see what few are saying cause I love my body just the way it is.
That's Body Positive- to love your body and yourself enough not to listen to those around. 115 lb or 123 lb, It's all about how you feel in your own skin. And making adjustments on how you feel inside and out. It is loving yourself and smiling in the mirror while doing it.
My self love journey wasn't an overnight thing. I gradually got here by- eating healthy foods ( sometimes ice cream can be a healthy snack if that's what your body wants), doing a 5 minute workout during the day and having a few self care days (baking cookies, going for a beach run or anything that relaxes you). What really helped me was finding other influencers and youtubers such as @Blogilates to encourage myself on my journey. I didn't punishment my body for not looking a certain way or skipped a meal because I ate too much during the day.
Blogilates was my very first Youtube channel I watched to start my Self Love Journey. Cassey Ho's bubbly and over exciting personality was encouraging and gave me the push I needed to start.
Advices to someone on their Self Love Journey:-
Be kind to yourself and your body.
Everything takes time.
Find people (whether it's Friends, Family Member or Youtubers) to inspire you along the way.
